Put me where you want me Lord

Not unto us, O LORD, not unto us, but unto thy name give glory, for thy mercy, and for thy truth's sake.
-Psalm 115:1


I don't even know how to start putting into words how blessed I've felt the past couple of weeks... but I want to put something down here, because I am just amazed at how God has just blessed my heart.

He has given me opportunities I never thought I would have... he's given me musical talents that I have always loved having, but there are no words to describe the feeling it is to have when you just lay yourself down and realize that you are just a vessel for Him to use to bless others. It's so easy to get nervous walking up there to play - worrying about how it sounds to everyone else - but when I sit back and watch and listen to everyone else and feel so blessed by the words and the music coming out at me... and to see people moved by the music God gives us.

I just sit in awe this morning right now, realizing how happy it makes me when get myself out of the way and just let God put me where he wants me -

Put me where you want me Lord
Where I belong
Lord help me stay in the center of thy Will
and when I reach the lowest valley I can climb the highest hill

It's so easy for me to get caught up in seeing the valleys I think are around me
And it's so easy to think you're just too busy to do the things for the Lord
I used to sit and watch my parents doing so many things at church, and rushing around to get things done, and wonder how they kept it up.
And last week was one of the busiest weeks I've had myself - practice, visitation, working with the children on Wednesday, and there were times when I got caught up in worrying whether I'd have time to get it all done

But yesterday I had some time alone before we played, after all the practicing and worrying about the details and rushing around all week - and I really heard the words of "Nothing Can Touch Me" - and none of those details mattered anymore - and everything I had done all week just turned right back around and caught my breath and something just grabbed me

It's so easy to look at it at things as our own achievements, or our own good deeds - oh I did this, I got involved in this, and this is what I did.
Good deeds are the fruits of salvation - but the real blessing that I've discovered in doing things for the Lord, is realizing that anything you do for Him is actually not of your own doing at all, and that it's only by His action upon us and from within us that accomplishes the things of His will.

Our good deeds and blessing others are simply the act of God's hand moving right through us, and when you feel him doing that with yourself, and see him doing that through others it's just like seeing the actual Hand of God right there in front of you...

When I got to sit down and listen to them last night, and when I was able to walk up there and play - and had prayed all day for God to help me keep in mind that it was all in His name and for His glory, and not to let frustration and nerves get in the way... I feel like we all felt His presence right in the middle of that church... and to feel how it just grabs you when He shows up... to see the tears well up in their eyes on stage... when one of us really hears those words we've been practicing over and over... and the mercy and power and grace of God is really understood and felt in a tangible and present way - it all happened last night, but it hit me again this morning, and throughout the day... it's just a feeling of wonder and awe and gratefulness for His power and all he blesses us with. I have been truly blessed with the opportunities He has provided and led me to - and I want to keep this feeling of thankfulness and wonder fresh... so when I forget and get caught up in what problems I think I have - I can remember how truly blessed I am.

I think that Nikki said it best last night with the happiest smile after the singing was over, so I'll sum this up with that and hope she doesn't mind my sharing:
"I feel like I just wanna be saved all over again after a night like this"

Thank you Lord for your blessings on me.
Help me to continue to see them and not get caught up in the problems this world gives us.

Put me where you want me
Where I belong

Thank you for letting me feel like I belong to you.